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The haze here is bad. My uber sensitive eyes have been itching nonstop since day one. The haze this time is not that bad compared to the ones we had before where schools had to be closed down. Even so, it is bad enough. Now that is just the haze.

Then there is the tormenting heat. Now that is not exactly the problem. We can just take cover from the blazing sun by staying indoors and enjoying the result of a blessed creation…The Air-Conditioner. The thing is, it has not rained since forever. The dams are drying up. The water level in the tangki at my housing area is at its minimum level. The result of that my friend is, two freaking days without bloody water! Ish!

Therefore, I am forced to spend the last days of my minimal holiday staying indoors.

With that, I thought of further researching about the Dyslexia. I think it was last year when my sis took  the test in her uni. She like had a proper analysis and all, and she confirmed that she was dyslexic. Therefore, I had this hunch that maybe I was dyslexic too. I did a short test over the Internet and the signs all seemed to fit. Therefore, this time when I came back, I was interrogating my dad. You see Dyslexia is believed to be inherited. Voila! My dad practically has all the signs. Therefore, after like checking all the web site available and watching podcast containing interviews and all, I think I can conclude that I am dyslexic too just like my dad, second sis and yes, my younger brother too. here are some of the obvious symptoms that i have.

• The dyslexic may reverse letters like b and d, or p and q, either when reading or writing.
• He may invert letters, reading or writing n as u, m as w, d as q, p as b, f as t.
• He may read or write words like no for on, rat for tar, won for now, saw for was.
• He may read or write 17 for 71.
• He may mirror write letters, numbers and words.
• When reading, the dyslexic may put letters in the wrong order, reading felt as left, act as cat, reserve as reverse, expect as except.
• He may put syllables in the wrong order, reading animal as ‘aminal’, enemy as ‘emeny’.
• He may put words in the wrong order, reading are there for there are.
• The dyslexic may write letters in the wrong order, spelling Simon as ‘Siomn’, time as ‘tiem’, child as ‘chidl’.
• He may omit letters, i.e. reading or writing cat for cart, wet for went, sing for string.
• Dyslexics may also have trouble remembering the order of the alphabet, strings of numbers, for example telephone numbers, the months of a year, the seasons, and events in the day.
• Omits or reads twice little words like the, and, but, in.
• Adds little words which do not appear in the text.
• Generally illegible writing.
• Letter inconsistencies.
• Mixture of upper/lower case letters or print/cursive letters.
• Irregular letter sizes and shapes.
• Unfinished letters.
• Struggle to use writing as a communicative tool.
• The dyslexic may have a problem with numbers and calculations involving adding, subtracting and time tables.
• He may be confused by similar-looking mathematical signs: + and ×; –, ÷ and =; < (less than) and > (greater than).
• He may not grasp that the words ‘difference’, ‘reduction’ and ‘minus’ all suggest ’subtraction’.
• He may understand the term ‘adding’, yet be thrown if asked to ‘find the total’.
• He may transpose numbers i.e., 752 – 572.
• He may have a difficulty with mental arithmetic.
• He may have a problem with telling the time.
• Makes up a story, based on the illustrations, which bears no relation to the text.
• Reads very slowly and hesitantly.
• Loses orientation on a line or page while reading, missing lines or reading previously-read lines again.
• Reads aloud hesitantly, word by word, monotonously.
• Tries to sound the letters of the word, but is then unable to say the correct word. For example, sounds the letters ‘c-a-t’ but then says cold.
• Mispronounces words, or puts stress on the wrong syllables.
• Foreshortens words, for example ‘portion’ for proportion.
• Substitutes another word of similar meaning, for example dog for pup.
• Reads with poor comprehension.
• Remembers little of what he reads.
• Spells words as they sound, for example ‘rite’ for right.
• Cannot write or match the appropriate letter when given the sound.
• Often ignores punctuation. He may omit full stops or commas and fail to see the need for capital letters.
• Poor at copying from the board.
• Has trouble attaching names to things and people.
• Seems to “Zone out” or daydream often; gets lost easily or loses track of time.
• Difficulty sustaining attention; seems “hyper” or “daydreamer.”
• Learns best through hands-on experience, demonstrations, experimentation, observation, and visual aids.
• Complains of feeling or seeing non-existent movement while reading, writing, or copying.
• Clumsy, uncoordinated, poor at ball or team sports; difficulties with fine and/or gross motor skills and tasks; prone to motion-sickness.
• Can be ambidextrous, and often confuses left/right, over/under.
• Computing math shows dependence on finger counting and other tricks; knows answers, but can’t do it on paper.
• Excellent long-term memory for experiences, locations, and faces.
• Poor memory for sequences, facts and information that has not been experienced.
• Thinks primarily with images and feeling, not sounds or words (little internal dialogue).

I have been able to comprehend some of the symptoms. they were more intense when i was younger. my teacher used to tell me that i was lazy cause i never checked my spellings and all before handing in my work. the thing is i always checked but nothing seemed wrong…

This is not my excuse for anything but rather an answer to so many things. I mean when i was younger, i thought i was stupid or something. So yeah this answers a whole lot of things.

Anyways i’ll be heading back to utp in a couple of days time and guess where will i be staying…V1D. Yay! I can’t wait to be haunted by scary unborn babies. A whole month there some more. Shit! Wan Lin‼‼!